Monday, 7 July 2008

Act Blur Live Longer...

Today i when i was scooping bird's nest out of the Zisha double-boiler in my mum-in-law's house...

me: wa, i just realised my zisha double-boiler is so tiny... it's only for two people ^^ so if you all come over, i can't cook bird's nest for you. haha...
mum-in-law: ya la, should buy bigger one ma... next time if the two of you got more family members still can use...
me: ????? er... why will we have MORE family members??? -.-
mum-in-law: *giggle*
brother-in-law's girlfriend: *want to giggle don't dare to giggle*
me: -________-||| *she's hinting again, act blur*

then when we were eating bird's nest, she saw my bruise and i told them the story of my olympic huddle event...

ah ma: see la! keep rabbit he want to bite you! keep baby better! baby next time will take care of you!
chris: *act blur*
ah ma: your rabbit cute? baby even cuter! when they can talk, can walk, v v cute! can your rabbit talk?
chris: *act blur*

i told chris about the conversation in the kitchen...
chris: more family members??? but claire and west don't eat bird's nest!

diao... we're facing pressure from friends (yes, i am beginning to hate gatherings cos EVERYONE has kids and alison will preach to me about having kids... and everyone thinks there's something wrong with us...), from colleagues (yes, kapoh colleagues also try to preach to me about having kids), from family, from society, from everywhere.

is there really something wrong with us? is there anything wrong with choosing NOT to have kids because we have calculated the costs and decided NEH we can't afford it? why does everyone impose their ideologies on us? they want to go forth and multiply it's their problem! we don't want to it's our problem! maybe they just want us to suffer with them cos they're jealous that we can holiday 4 times a year and be so independent... ya, i think everyone is jealous... they want us to have no life too.... what's so good about having kids... they cut your jiji, you grow fat, you get no sleep, you feel like a cow, you have no life, you can't buy the stuff you like cos you've got to think of your kid's education, when your kids have exams, you feel stressed, when they're teenagers, they don't want you anymore, then when they grow up, you expect them to take care of you but will they?? can they??? can they afford to take care of you or will you just become a burden to them???

for me, it's just something i am not prepared for... it's just too daunting... so i will just act blur...